Hello everyone, I hope you're doing well !
I am and some much happened over the course of 5 days. But let me tell you first that God is FAITHFUL ! He is incredibly faithful and he is good! Last week I went to a women's retreat, not really expecting much , I mean I was excited to be around real women of God who are on fire for him and it was free. So I thought that's amazing I have to go. But God definitely met me there in ways I would have never expected ! I went there on Thursday with only the ticket for my way to the retreat and not back. And I even had to borrow the money from someone to get there. But I kinda knew God wanted me to be there on that particular day. So I prayed saying ' Lord if you're bringing there you'll provide my train ticket back and everything else I need '
So He DID, he provided more than I needed! Women at the retreat suddenly came and gave me money saying that God told them to sow into me. Even my lunch got paid for the next day. So I had money for the train ride back and I had eaten for lunch but the Lord wasn't finished with me yet. A sister I met through Pinky Promise, who also invited me to the retreat came to me and asked if I want to spend the rest of the weekend with her and her family and I said yes. Normally I would say no or be really scared but I had peace and just said yes. So I got to spend time with my new awesome sister in Christ and her family ! I got to go out and eat awesome food (again the Lord provided) , have slumber parties and just kinda enjoy myself. I'm not saying that to boast because actually I don't deserve all that but God gave it to me not because of what I've done or said but simply because he values me and I'm his child. And that's what I needed to learn, that God is my provider, he's the one who lovingly takes care of me because he values me ! He gave me the name Priscilla which means 'eternal value' and I didn't know that until that weekend where I received a card with my name and its meaning on it.
Jesus showed me so many things about me I didn't know and things I did know but ignored. I had so much baggage I was carrying with me, hidden sins that hindered me from truly stepping into that life of freedom, love, peace and joy in Jesus.
Deep down I had distrust towards God and it all resulted into fear, anger, resentment, unforgiveness, jealousy and bitterness . God brought me to this place so that he could finally have me all by himself without distractions coming my way.
It reminds me of Hosea 2 where the Lord brought his bride Israel into the wilderness where no one could take her away from him, all her lovers(sins, pleasures) she was running after he removed them just to have her back.
14 Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her. 15 There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achora a door of hope. There she will respond as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt.
Hosea 2:14 -15 (NIV)
God truly wants us, he wants our hearts, pure , free and empty so that he can fill them with his unfailing love.
At one of the slumber parties we had we were watching Princess Diaries 2 and there was a scene where Princess Mia and her Prince escaped together by night to spend time together, they danced , talked about each other's secrets and heart desires and laid in each others arms and the intimacy that was portrayed there brought me to tears because I realized that's the intimacy I want to have with my King Jesus and can have.
We are God's Queens and brides , we belong to him. And all he wants is to be intimate with us, to know us for who we are and to be known by us . But we have to let go of everything that we may not want to let go off, everything that hinders us. Past wounds won't stop Jesus from chasing you down, in fact he won't be still until you're totally his, he won't relent. Our God faithful ! He will help us to walk this road with him, He is good and kind. And he loves us more than we know !
For your royal husband delights in your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord.
Psalm 45:11 (NLT)
I hope this encourages someone to come into deeper intimacy with Jesus !
Love & Blessings,
Priscilla ♡
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